I woke up this morning to fuzzy ear - tingly arm syndrome, ie imminent panic attack. Why? Who knows. So instead of my usual - run for the hills!! I stayed put. Well, I had to bc last night I stupidly put my new $150 Mizuno running shoes in the washing machine which then made minced meat out of them.
So I stayed home with my girls and we did nothing all morning and I was all the better for it. A leisurely bike ride to work, poked around a market, gelato, a bit of work, and that was a day. Maybe instead of trying to outrun my anxiety I should surrender to it? However, I might quickly become housebound.
Nem woke up late this am (930) as she was out past midnight. She woke bright and sparkly eyed - so enthralled with her experience last night. I will miss out no more - SUnday we will all go to Brandenburg Gate with 1000 000 other Germans to watch the cup. I only hope they win.
I love Anemone's sense of nationalism. She's fiercely German right now. Last year she was French, in a couple of weeks, she'll be canadian. No one would be killed in the name of nationalism running that shallow.
Melissa, your drive to work out is commendable. I am living in slow motion for the first time: ie, take it easy! Slow down! What's the rush? I get it. I finally get it. E/o passes me on the bike path, I actually stop for red lights. It takes me twice as long to get anywhere as it used to, but its so much more relaxed.
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Keep up the relaxing Miranda. You're right! You'll be all the better for it.
ReplyDeleteNem is a real citizen of the world.
Yes, you are on to something--what brought me back from my biggest "edge" moment was taking a month off and doing nothing but "hanging" with my family. And take my advice: take Nem (the wonder kid)--seriously! with you to the giant chess peices and play a game with her every single morning. Remember MATH rewires the brain--snuffing out the mess of anxious wires.
ReplyDeleteBelieve it or not, the turn point for me with my panic attacks was learning to embrace them. I still loathe every moment when it happens (I don't think anyone could actually enjoy that) but I refuse now to push it away (that never works anyway) or fight it. Usually just letting them flow works the best and surprisingly each one since I started this has been lighter and lighter. I doubt they'll ever really go away for me but they've reduced to something that is just an occassional annoyance in my life now. Maybe your strategy achieved the same effect.
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