This feels awkward still? Does it go away? To be so conscious of an audience, and not just one person -like a letter or an email, but to an unknown, unseen ?
Showdown with Shirley today. It was painful. I retreated to the kitchen to roll out cracker dough, paper thin, while Y did his best Kofi Annan in the living room. It is getting worse, as she is becoming delusional, hysterical, morbidly obsessive about her health. It came down to one thing, as far as I can see...we are not paying her enough attention. She is very angry with us; how we could abandon her like that? (read: me. How could I abandon her like that?)
But she will retain the dogs, and will be attending to their vet bills in the future.
Feel a real urge to give this forum some focus - a theme. What could it be?
Maybe un/like Bridget Jones I could chronicle my sugar units, exercise output and weighins?
Or maybe if I put down my obsessive menu making thoughts here, I could drive them out of my head? ( On Monday we're having butter chicken, I can use the rice on Tuesday for the spinach and then on Wednesday I'll have to finish off the rutabagas before they go completely rancid....)
I dont think the world needs to experience my inner world.
Must go - these Crest White Strips are burning a hole through my gums, but man I feel like a movie star!
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I like the black on white. And white strips? You, the QUEEN of poo pooing any tooth whitening?
ReplyDeleteI'm glad Shirley is keeping the beasts. I think that it would be too lonely for her without them. Maybe you guys could point her towards cheaper vet care. What if you orchestrated a very formal time to see her like once a month? Would she be amenable to that? I think I would be interested in your menus. People don't realize how much decaying vegetables weigh on you and how releasing it is to have a good dish to dump them in.
ReplyDeleteWho's Shirley?
ReplyDelete-Henry